That is my boyfriend, John Krasinski. How adorable is he?
Don't touch him! HE'S MINE!
Leo
July 22 - August 22
The last months have been very challenging - and there's a very good chance that you no longer feel up to meeting the challenges. So if you have been yearning to modify something in your daily life, do it now, dear Leo. The hour has come to make concrete changes. Regardless of whether the change you seek is at home or at work, physical or emotional, don't be afraid of seriously upsetting your life.
Oh, don't worry msn.com horoscope. I am not afraid to seriously upset my life. In fact, I welcome it.
Actually, not that lazy. I'd just did my quiz for comm research.
i'd also like to announce that this was one morning where i was not hungover when i woke up a night after bar hopping. i mean, i slept till noon but still, i feel good. and on friday night me and katie got ice cream and watched high school musical 2 on TV. no, we're not 3rd graders. why?
hot fuzz was one of the funniest movies i've ever seen. and i finished season two of The OC. season three me. NOW.
take me to L.A. CLOWNS!
this update was horrible.
So many good and horrible things are happening at once. No, not horribly good. Horrible AND good.
My roommate is in her room crying to her mom about not knowing what she wants to do in life or where she should be. There is nothing in this world that quite takes your breath away like feeling like you have nowhere to go.
My tolerance for work is non-existent. I’m not sure what changed in the past couple weeks, but I’ve had it.
My best friends are scattered across the country, and I have to pay bills. Whenever my tooth hurts, I wonder if my insurance will cover it. I remember the days I would wonder how much a trip to the dentist would cut into my school day at LCHS. Mommy and Daddy are no longer dropping me off at soccer practice. I am now staying late with my girls at practice waiting until every last one gets picked up by their parents.
Horrible things.
But good things. I love to coach. I’m outside and running around with some pretty great kids who think I’m great. And I’m a great coach.
I have a second interview for a job where I’m coming up with the ideas! ME! And I didn’t get it through people I know or through who my parents know. I got the interview, me. I put together the portfolio of my work. MINE. And I charmed the SHIT out of the Manager. I did. I know I’m smart. And it looks like other people are starting to notice as well.
With any luck, I won’t have to worry about being at a job I can’t stand by the end of next week. Wait, not luck. I’m relying on my charisma, and my intelligence. I don’t need luck.
13 was tough, what with fitting in. 16 was harder, with high school and boys. And at 18 I thought I was dead when my high school sweetheart dumped me. And at 21 I couldn’t pick myself off the ground when the “love of my life” moved across the country.
And now, at 23…I’m going through so many more emotions in one day that I ever thought possible. The thrill of career possibilities. The joy of seeing my players finally connect their passes. The dread of my boss calling me to say more stupid words in my ear. The ache from missing my friends. The simple contentment of sitting in my own apartment, cooking my own dinner, and not feeling even the slightest bit bad of watching TV all night.
My mom emailed me and my friends this. And I think it describes everything we’re going through at this age.
The Quarter-Life Crisis
by unknown
It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that
there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or
may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in
a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are
now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those
friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the
greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch
with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is
that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or
mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would
be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are
going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.
You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the
same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they
weren't so great after all.
You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not
want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing
and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you
realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to
your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and
then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You
feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you
try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the
past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but
stay where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such
damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone
decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love
someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because
you are not a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting
wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through
the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends
about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for
yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just
like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We
are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we
can to figure this whole thing out.
true dat.
off to watch Hot Fuzz. I need a laugh.
I'm catching up on all season three of How I Met Your Mother on CBS.com...that is what i'll be doing today instead of working.
I have my second interview on monday for First Advantage. Apparently the manager of that business unit wants to meet me. No pressure.
I hope I get it. If I don't...i'm gonna throw ramen noodles around my office until i get fired. i figure it's the silliest way to go out.
I'm in my Group Comm class and we're discussing the 1996 Mt. Everest disaster and how group communication was involved. or lack thereof.
It's real interesting stuff. The expedition was analyzed from a group point of view. Lack of radio communication, the Sherpas inability to get the ropes ready in time, the amount of people climbing at one point...all led to this disaster.
katie, stop looking at my computer.
Anyway, everyone in the class is saying, "you couldn't pay me $65,000 (the average cost to climb it) to do this." and me and Katie (class BFF, not roommate) are like, "LET'S FUCKIN CLIMB THIS BITCH."
it reminds my of a friends episode where joey and chandler want to climb it and phoebe goes:
"You know it costs like, 70,000 dollars to climb it. and people die. (looks at chandler) and you WOULD die."
they just decide to rent a video of it. and also Die Hard.
Well, i keep looking at pictures and watching videos on National Geographics website, and I am fascinated. I'm gonna throw out there that I'm going to climb Mt. Everest by the time I'm 50.
Talk about lofty goals.
http://channel.nationalgeographic.com/channel/highspeed/everest/
So, i just got off the phone with my idiot of a boss. He couldn't quite get the concept of how the enewsletters we get filled with press releases are the same as the websites that these enewsletters come from. He talked to me like I was retarded, than slammed the phone down after i explained to him three times that its not my fault that I registered with the website and they still haven't send me any emails.
"BUT DIDN'T YOU REGISTER LAST WEEK LIKE I TOLD YOU?!?!"
"yes, and i've tried again and again and yet i still haven't gotten any emails from them."
and then of course, i had to retard proof my thought proccess so he didn't have to do any thinking.
THAT has been my day. and THAT is why i can't wait to quit. and i can't wait to tell my vice president why i'm leaving. "um, the work environment is terrible. and that is why your art director, assistant editor, and circulation manager are all leaving within weeks of each other." true story.
while filling out my passport information i left the employer space blank because i know i wont be here much longer. either i get this other job and quit, or i set this office on fire. too bad, i would like this job alot more if my bosses weren't morons.
i couldn't sleep last night. i was up so late thinking about getting this internship. i stressed about it. then got excited about it. i tossed and turned. if i'm so consumed by it now, i'd hate to see myself when i find out i didnt get it. not by a longshot. i think i might crash. and eat frosting from a can. and by 3 cats. awesome.
I'm in class right now. Pretending to pay attention to the clusterfuck that is this class. It's a good class, it's pretty much re-doing first semester of senior year in my undergrad. Research research research. create study. DO study. write. present. It's just really thrown together when it comes to class time. Most of it is everyone bitching about something they dont understand and me downloading music until it comes time to meet with my group. we conclude that we know what we're talking about and our generally more awesome than everyone and then I go raid the vending machines. Writer papers when you must, participate if necessary.
http://www.emmys.tv/foundation/internships.php
that's the website with the internship that i applied for in the summer. i am visualizing my application in the "YES" pile and not the "hell NO." pile. visualize. positive thoughts. oh hell, i wont poop until the end of april.
how i met your mother with britney spears is on right now i believe. damn class. how dare i further my education! my favorite celebrity is on my favorite show. at least i'll be home to watch the Hills. You know, for an intelligent girl I usually watch some dumb shows.
don't judge me.
That's me. And I've moved from livejournal to this thing because seeing all the cool things in Jordan's blog made me jealous.
I If you know me, cool. Skip to next paragraph. If you don't, welcome. I'm an editor at a pharmaceutical magazine. It's my first job out of college, and i'm already sick of it. It's money, it's experience, and it's slowly killing me. I'm looking for other jobs, and currently am interviewing for a copywriter position at a company that im real excited about. I live in Indy, and i love it. I'm getting my Masters in Communication while I work my full time job, and I coach a u-12 girls premier soccer team. So, i'm busy all the time. On days off, the rare ones, I like to hang out with hetero life partner Katie, sleep, or write. Hence, the blog. I love my friends, my family, and being extremely awesome.
So that's me. I often have random thoughts and I think the world should hear them. I'll probably go on rants a couple times a month, tell a stupid story about my friends once a week, and let everyone know what the hell i'm doing a couple times a day.
I wanna be big time. Big office in a big building doing big things. Or I want to be a writer. Publishing hilarious stories or scripts and living in my sweatpants. Those are the dreams. Hopefully I can one day be both.
Jordan has a "Goals I want to Achieve List" Here is mine:
Within the next year:
- Hopefully spend the summer in hollywood at the Academy for Arts and Sciences scriptwriting internship
- Be at a job i actually look forward to going to
- be halfway done with my masters program
- have more time to myself
- get back into college soccer playing shape
Nothing too extreme. Except for the first one. We'll hear about that at the end of April. So if on May 1st, you see a blog where I just put "YEAH!" on it, that means i'm a finalist. If you see one that says "NO." then you can safely assume I didn't get it.
Now for what I'm reading, watching, and listening to:
The first in a series that inspired the TV show "Women's Murder Club". It's excellent.
I love teenage drama. I get addicted to a new show every month through NetFlix.
I love her. So I'm usually listening to her. And yes, i do think she needs to get her life together. She's working on it.
First Vox post FTW.
