SocrBritney’s Neighborhood

...standing in the line for the bathroom! is the new single from N.E.R.D and if you have not heard it, it sounds a little annoying at first, yet very catchy. Also known as "everybody nose' the video is even better. It really captures the rawness of the bar scene. Why is it that women who are intoxicated must a) dance so hard on the dance floor they begin to sweat and then b) agree to stand in a line for the bathroom behind 20 other girls.

I have provided the youtube vid for your convenience...

N.E.R.D - Everyone Nose (All The Girls Standing In Line ...)

So anywho...

Just got back this evening from loplops, this resto-bar in town, that I've never been to. Aniela and I decided to go, I wanted to take her out for her bday, but I know we would both enjoy something alot more chill than the dance club scene, you know less sweat and bathroom lines... well there was live entertainment, this musician names Jimi Maze and he was supposedly a cross btw hip hop and folk. Very odd... but enjoyable, if I could compare him to anyone I'd say Maroon 5 maybe?

I don't know see for yourself...

Jimi Maze at Healey's - Rap Set

Lil update. upon my return to the soo from kzoo, my neigbor offered a job. He is a tree marker and marks trees to be cut down in the bushes about an hour north of the city. Well I don't know how these physically demanding jobs find me, but I quit after two days. Carrying a 15 lb backpack, coveralls, steel toe boots... to difficult. It was a major realization to me though... quitting. I have never quit anything in my life. I don't know if that is the positive side or a negative side of being a perfectionist, and at first I was feeling down on myself for giving up. But I realized that I'm not going to be able to do ALOT of things in life, and accepting that fact, became very liberating for me. Perfectionists around don't take to well to failing or admitting fault... but th th that don't kill you makes you stronger.. right kanye?

Well its been 6 days and I miss him already. I am fighting every urge to hop in my vehicle and drive the 4 and  a half hours to his front door. Again what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, and the positive side of me, the side where faith and hope prevails looks at it our situation as one that we need to figure out, where we need a game plan.

As far as my career, and not finding much in my unspecialized, over populated major... I feel as if I don't want to sit back and be a play the waiting role and be at the mercy of what comes around. I have so much motivation to take the pro-active role and create my own destiny. Go after what I want, and what will work for me, and provide me with the best situation with WHO I want to be with and WHERE I want to be.

Reading EAT PRAY LOVE , only one of the 3 books I am in the middle of, the author who is has travelled to an Ashram in India, reflects on what as humans we have control over, and what we don't. How our thoughts, we own them and can control them completely and how our thoughts have such a powerful command over soooo much. I need to realize this. I think this book as well as "The Secret" (as far fetched and as you may believe this book is) has really changed the process in which I think now... I don't feel easily influenced or swayed to believe what these books what the majority to believe, rather it has opened doors to rooms where my thoughts are able to expand and work in my favor and my best interest.... confused? not as nearly as I am...

Well these posts are getting longer and longer each time, although I don't often post, when I do, I feel like I am draining my excess thoughts onto my laptop. Getting them out puts me at ease.... I literally can drive myself crazy, anxiety-wise 3 times a day if I didn't find a place to take my thoughts for a walk and escape.

Tomorrow I have the mid-season tourney finals for womens league soccer, working out, and doing some work professionally to advance my career plans, I'd get into it, but I really have no desire to get into the details...

Also, Christian Audigier has released a new line of his Don Ed Hardy designs for a swim suit line, if I had money, I'd be all over it....

Ed Hardy Swim Suit Line

The past week or so have been amazing, came down to visit the boyfriend in Michigan. I love the city, love being here and love the feeling when he walks thru the door when he's home from work. Sounds corny but it just feels...nice.
Well the job search down here has been horrible. The immense competition for teaching is overwhelming. With 2 major education colleges in the area, it seems like a million people are competing for a hundred jobs in the area. I know realistically its a job isn't gonna just pop up out of nowhere, especially for a Canadian. So we've had to change our game plans a little. It's funny how when you're falling in love you don't think about the complications it could create. Don't get me wrong I have no regrets in life, and I am proud of that. It's just really eye-opening to look back and think everything will just fall into place the way you want it to, or the way you expect it to. Just really exposed the rawness of life and the fact that although I think you are not a helpless victim of life's processes, but your actions and reactions to the things that life throw at you, can really define who you are as a person. And I am learning, every frieken day, every step of the way. It does help tremendously to have the best man with me, supportive and dedicated to our relationship as I am. I am truly so grateful.

Well this weekend, one of my roommates from college, Ashley and her boyfriend Fred came to stay and visit and we had a good time. Ashley and I did some shopping while the guys worked out, and we went out Saturday night to a piano bar and I had so much fun. It was definitely a different crowd, but extremely enjoyable. So a fun weekend, we actually went out, and enjoyed some company.

I'm sadly headed home today, not that home is such a bad place, but I wish so much I could just work in the US this summer I would be here no question. But anyways, I believe I will be having a source of income for the summer when I get home. My neighbor has his own business and he needs some help doing tree marking in the bushes just north of our house. I don't know how these weird jobs keep finding me, but I need money and that is all I know

Well I'm off to Detroit to see one of my friends comedy shows tonight. So I'm excited to see her and spend some time with her till she is off to LA to live and work.

Practice Acts of Random Kindness!

There has been a lot that has happened which has prevented me from posting. Some I wish to speak about, and others I wish to forget. One of them, however is my physical leap from College. Yes I have graduated. And I although I haven’t exactly fallen into the "real world" I would like to say I am floating somewhere in the "abyss" btw college and the real world. Since I’ve been home, I haven’t found a job, and have been desperately trying to find a job. So far, no such luck. To make things even the more complicated, I love finding out that if I would have done certain things differently in the past, it could have put me in a better situation presently to find a job. But can we look back? Although my mind can’t stop doing so… I have to force it on the present.

So, presently… I am at home, and trying very hard to be patient. Patient being away from the boyfriend and fighting every incling to drive down to see him at any opportunity. But most of all patient with my family. I know that probably sounds really bad. But being away from them for so long, I needed to ease into being around them so much… But no, I get the full fledged sarcasm, fighting, running around thrown at me. Its hard to handle, but you gotta love’em

Was across the river, soo mich. to do some shopping.. although I ended up only getting some hair elastics which is weird. guess I just wasn’t in the shopping mood. We got pulled over at customs thought, I guess having over $300 worth of merchandise constitutes as having to pay taxes. I mean when someone asks how much money you have and you reply we each have $85, that does mean $85 times the three people in the car…. Good thing I didn’t claim the 35 mm pistols next to the pound of cocaine in the back seat… mannn. I feel like sometimes I try too hard to make things simpler when I talk and obviously sometimes simple is too complicated. I think for the next little while I won’t try and just say what comes out… and if I still get confused looks, I won’t know what to do anymore…

 Well this post definately lacked depth… I am sort of out of it today…I have an early morning beginning with the gym, then doing some more running around. So I better get some shut-eye.

Well, a lot has been going on lately - many changes

Here are a few updates to my summer goal list:

1. FIND A PLACE TO LIVE IN CHICAGO (Apartment or tiny tiny condo)
Most important of all, I want to live in Chicago by June.  I am putting that out there now!

Finished!  Me and dad found a place the first day we were looking.  I thought it was going to take over 2 months and it took a weekend to find an apartment.  I'm so excited for the area I'll be in as well as living on my own in the city.  SO PUMPED!

2. Attend 4 outdoor concerts
I go to many indoor concerts, but there is nothing like an outdoor spring/summer concerts.

I bought a lollapalooza 3-day pass, expensive but worth it.  There will be a shit ton of amazing bands this year.  Since it was so expensive, I will count it as 3 outdoor concerts.  Also, I bought a ticket for Saturday July 19's Pitchfork music festival in Union Park.  I am also looking at a few other concerts, but you can consider this goal completed!

3. Start listening to 30 new music artists
I have a tendency to listen to what I know.

Honestly, I think I can cross off this goal.  I download at least 5 new bands a week.

4. Meet and become friends (real, not Facebook) with 5 new people
Originally it was going to be 10, but I am realistic.

I have legitimately met and become real friends with about 2 new people at this point.   With moving into the city soon, I am sure I can easily knock this out by July.
 

5. Begin a graphic design gig, create at least 2 pieces of work
It's something I like to do in my free time, so I might as well start doing it for money or experience.

6. Get a front page post for a comedic website
This is super lame, but I KNOW I can write an entry that can get on the front page of site like "college humor".

This is going to be much more difficult than I expected.  You have to have a lot of people notice your article to get any front page recognition.  This may be a wash, but I'll try again soon-I have a few good ideas.

I still have to work on the remaining goals.  I've got all summer to do it, though.

Fingers crossed!

Show us a beverage you absolutely can't stand the taste of.

Milk

Jen and I were talking on Friday about how Ross from friends looked like Chris Gaines on the front of the "Redeye".  I started to make the connection of Chris Gaines with EMO! and started to see what his whole game was about.

A little background on Chris Gaines: country singer Garth Brooks decided to ruin America more than he already was currently doing with his stupid country music by also becoming some weird emo-ish soft rock messenger of suck.  The problem is, most people found Chris Gaines really creepy - it was supposed to start a whole new music career for Garth Brooks, but it failed.

Now maybe my timing is off, cause Chris Gaines didn't exist until emo already started in 1999, but maybe it was just the extra little push most troubled teens needed to start hating their dads and cutting themselves.

Why did you have to do it?

Maybe Chris Gaines had very little to do emo.  All I am really saying, is that this should be a lesson to country singers and all music artists - don't try to re-invent yourself with someone lamer than you already are.

"Karma's justice without the satisfaction. I don't believe in justice."